When I had lunch with my dad today, he told me that he believes that animals should not be kept in zoos. He is against horse racing and is against trophy hunting. Yet he eats meat. I didn’t raise this with him. Maybe I should have. He constantly rails against injustice. He complains about how the rich are corrupting politicians and how politicians do not work for the people. Basically he complains about how powerful beings exploit weaker ones, but then he eats meat and therefore exploits beings weaker than himself.
When I think about this, it makes me depressed about mankind because of course they will just do what’s easy for them, and many people love eating juicy succulent meat, so they will continue to do it, and complaining is easy, so they will do that as well. Any problem in life that reflects poorly on them can be explained away by blaming the rich and powerful.
I suppose I have always been skeptical of my father. Especially after he divorced from my mother after it was discovered that he was cheating on her, I started to lose faith in him. He is, after all, just human. I still visit him every now and then, but I am careful now because I don’t trust him. He cheated on my mother and hid it for over a decade. Now he eats meat and doesn’t give a damn about animals, so if he is so deceptive and callous towards other beings, why wouldn’t he treat me the same way? Maybe he tries to meet up with me every day to keep me close so he can exploit me or use me in some way. I just don’t know.
I’m not comfortable with just cutting my dad out of my life or calling him out on his sins. He is my father, and I do believe I should at least treat him well. He and my mother did put in a reasonable amount of effort to raise me, so I am torn. I just feel like I’ve seen too much of him that disgusts me, and it gets me down, so I need to spend more time with other people, and preferably I should spend time with more of my vegan friends. I need to connect with people who share my values. This will truly give me happiness. When you try to connect with people who absolutely do not share your values, this only creates discord. I’ve tried to explain veganism to my dad many times, but he just doesn’t get it, so there’s no point. He is just a bad person. It’s tough coming to that realization that your own father is a bad person. It’s really tough. That’s just the way the world is. I won’t cut him out of my life, but I’ll definitely try to spend less time with him.